This is a nice thread; letting others know what's going on is often a great first step in diminishing self-destructive thoughts. What keeps me going, every single day, is my wife and son. When I was at my worst, it was the thought of either one of them learning about my demise at my own hands that helped me keep it together. Thankfully, I'm not in that state of mind anymore; rather, I'm simply depressed and looking for a solution to it that lifts the depression so that I can once again enjoy life.