Something happened in my last therapy session that hasn't happened in many years. I used to disassociate alot.

This experience scared me and I thought that I would ask what you all think happenned...

I have started to tell my very deepest secrets in therapy (ones I have never told anyone). I mean I have told alot and had a alot of therapy - 20 some years but not these secrets.

As I left the session, I lost time... about 5 minutes worth, as I said goodbye. At the pdoc I normally squeeze his elbow (silly I know but it's kind of a ritual after 4 years) but this was the Therapist - not the Pdoc.

So I kinda woke up to reaching for his elbow and ended by shaking his hand. For a few minutes I felt like and was with my pdoc (who I am very close with - this T is new since Dec) The experience was just so strange - I haven't figured it out.
I think that as I go thru these secrets, I may disassociate alot again.. Do you think that is OK?? to go back to that method?

Sorry for being so clumsy about explaining this. I used to be very separate and that was OK with me. I "knew" what I was doing and didn't "lose" time. Completely,
losing time hasn't happened in a long, long time.

Sorry again,,,, I just would really appreciate your help.

I haven't posted in this forum before.

Sincerely,
freewill