
Jul 03, 2014, 10:20 AM
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Member Since: May 2013
Location: Chicago
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Originally Posted by Findley
For the last few weeks, I feel like I've gone insane. Several weeks back, I thought I heard my friend say my name at swim practice. He didn't. Since then, my mental health has seemingly gone downhill fast, and it has worried me so incredibly much.
Every time I hear a noise that I don't know the source of, I have gotten really scared. But, I figured I was just being paranoid about it. But, recently, particularly in the last few days, I've had random thoughts just pop into my head. I don't know how to explain it, but they're soft, and they're not mine, at all. For instance, I was reading a article a few hours ago, and the word "communists" just popped into my head. Just the word, nothing else, and it seems as if I didnt think of it. It's like having auditory hallucinations, but you don't hear them, you think them. In the last few weeks, I occasionally would have one of those random thoughts once or twice a day. But today, I've had countless. I've heard "does the dean know what we're doing", "I'm only joking" and much more. At the same time, I've had ringing ears. I'll turn my head, and the ringing will stop. It scares me, and I think I'm going crazy. Today, I also heard beeping in my ears, and what sounded like construction. And, whenever I think or reflect on the ringing in my ears, it comes back again.
I'm just so scared and overwhelmed. Im afraid my life will be destroyed because of this. Im afraid I could lose everything because of it, and I got so nervous, it felt as if the room was spinning.
So, am I developing schizophrenia, have I gone completely insane? Help?
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So first...chill...even if you are having hallucinations it is in no way the end of the world----yes its a little bit different but it can be treated in most cases. What you are describing sounds like a pseudohallucination to me some of us refer to these as inner voices. In some cases these are totally normal. In some cases it means you have some sort or medical issue and in some cases its the beginning of psychosis. Early detection results in the best outcome so what you do is see a family doctor and ask for a few tests to rule out anything physical as a cause---if that doesn't turn up anything then ask for a referral to a psychiatrist. In the mean time there is a book called the center cannot hold by elyn saks....she has schizophrenia and also a law degree---she's also a professor in California, won a macarthur genius award etc....just to learn more she picked up a psych degree on top of that. Even if you do have schizophrenia its not impossible to go on to have a normal life with medication.
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