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optimistic_dolphin · Jul 03, 2014, 12:29 PM

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Originally Posted by Curiosity77

You are somebody, and you matter. That's hard if you have a trip coming up that you don't want to miss. The thing is that traveling is stressful, and stress can make psychosis worse. If you go on your trip without dealing with this you run the risk of totally losing control, and being far away from home, maybe in a foreign hospital. I work in mental health (I am also bipolar), and I have had a patient lose it on a plane and get taken off by police and into hospital. I don't want something like that to happen to you. Your health is more important than your trip. If hospital is not an option, at least see if you can talk to your pdoc and get some meds before you go. I still think that you should go to ER if the thoughts of hurting others are strong and you feel like you can't control it. Safety first.

My family are all packing right now. They know I am not thinking straight but don't know what exactly is happening. Well, the trip isn't too much of a big deal to me. It's going back to a country we used to live. for 8-9 years. They are excited. I know I can blow it up over there. The flight is tmr morning at 11am. So there's 8 hours before we leave for airport... I have thoughts like my luggage will get x-ray and they will steal my stuff without opening the luggage, so I cover it up with newspaper.
I feel like I need the hosp but a part of them doesn't want to be trapped there. No going on the trip means anything can happen during this period at home. I keep thinking of killing my dog. The body goes cold and rot for the week before they come back to find him lying on the floor with flies and maggots.
My thoughts are running wild.like I need to sprinkle the floor with paper to lay the road for the man to return. the path of soul and hell. scribble on the wall to mark his blood and recognition.