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Originally Posted by zinco14532323
Same ole thing. I had a real good week last week. Did a side job all week with a buddy and made pretty good money. that helps a lot as I have been totally dependent on my parents for some months now. My birthday was Sunday and had a really good day. I usually hate my birthday but this year I looked forward to it. Then on Wednesday I crashed big time and slept all day. All the symptoms of major depression. Plus ruminating and non stop worrying. Today I feel a little better but want to go back to bed. There is a definite pattern and it seems to hit after one little phase of something is over and I feel a let down.
The big thing that triggered it was my car over heated and I don't know why. It has been fine. I could not stop worrying about it and I was frozen to do anything about it. It triggered me or else it just coincided.
I have had some very good weeks. I would even say approaching happy weeks. Then these mini depressions keep coming and it has me really worried.
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Hello Zinco: It sounds as though, in general, you're doing pretty well. It's these periods of depression that keep popping up that concern you. It seems like you're pretty self-aware. In other words, you're conscious of what's happening in your life & how you're feeling at the time.
I wonder if it would be possible to do sort-of a diary, or some type of chart, that you could use to keep track of what types of things are going on when the depressions come on, such as your car overheating. This may well have been what triggered this most recent downturn. If you can begin to discern the types of events that are triggering you, perhaps you can develop ways to head off, or at least minimize, the depressive downturns. Perhaps there is something you really enjoy doing that you could do whenever you anticipate a depression coming on, based on what you know has triggered you before.
I would suspect your worry over these periods of depression is probably feeding into them; & making them just that much worse. This type of thing does tend to become a vicious circle. If on the other hand you can learn what tends to trigger these events, & develop a technique for heading them off or minimizing them, this may help you to feel more in control. And feeling more in control may itself help to reduce the intensity of these episodes... just a thought...
