Talking about it only retraumatizes if you don't have someone who can hear you the way you need them to. It isn't "just" about telling the story, it is having the right person who can help you resolve it the way "you" need to have them help you.

When you talk about it, it is very broken up can you see that? I am sure it is very vivid and emotionally challenging to you when you try to talk about it too. You also bounce from one thing to the next, makes sense to you, but hard to put together for the listener.

In the throws of it, it is very easy to think of it as a "manic" episode too. It depends on what is taking place and how much comes forward all at once that connects to it too.