TJ!!!! And what have I been saying all along is under all of this??? A really caring, considerate, thoughtful, compassionate.............person??!!!!
Surely it's got to be about time you started really believing that after your last few posts, yes??!!!
So just try to open yourself up as much as you can to any help you can get and using that as well/much as you can, you deserve it!!!
As or the stress/five days since you SH'd. Well you know, it's got to be hard managing without having that "at hand" after it's been so prominent for you in coping, but just keep pushing through bit by bit and as many other/"healthy" coping options as you can/need, hey??
And you know what, I don't care if they've kept "sharps" away from you, you still haven't SI'd so congratulations on five days!!! And well done!!!!
Alison