Edit: was writing this before I saw your reply Alison, thanks.

Saw consultant this afternoon and it went well I think. Psychiatrist has officially diagnosed me with depressive disorder and anxiety without psychosis (they weren't sure when I first came in)

Has upped my dose of antidepressant and diazepam.

Also allowing me weekend leave to go home on the provision I come back Sunday. Is looking at discharge in 2-3 weeks with leave in between to ensure I can manage at home. I've been referred to a community psychiatric nurse for when discharged along with the first 7 days to be monitored by the crisis team.

With regards to leave the wife and I will have the ward number in case things deteriate so they can advise what to do or to come back immediately which I think reassured the wife as she's worried about me cutting and still having suicidal thoughts but they want feedback on how things go at home as my anxiety has been through the roof at times on the ward.

In that regard I'm a little scared too as my mind set can change dramatically and I will be going from an environment where for the last 5 days all sharpes have been taken away to a home full of them... Going to be a matter of self control and determination.

Trying to be positive too though, will be out of here for 2 days which is so welcome.