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Originally Posted by krisjack81
You're a person and you are not a Alien. You are the one that is holding you back. We are the ones that are our worst critic and really nobody really thinks about you that much as you think about yourself. It is good that you go to therapy and I hope you get a positive outlook on things from it.
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I'm the one who goes out and makes friends. We just don't connect and I give up after a while. It has nothing to do with them not liking me. It's just that despite how much we have in common, I don't connect to them. Maybe I'm not supposed to feel anything or for some reason, I can never feel satisfied by my connection with other people?
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Originally Posted by Alone & confused
Honey, are you sure that you're not projecting some negative feelings you have about yourself onto others? Do YOU think of yourself as "different" or unwanted or whatever? You seem to me like a good person! So I have to wonder if maybe you (for some reason) have convinced yourself that others see you in a bad way?? I don't think any of us at PC would think you were an "outcast"! Anyway, I hope things get better for you and that you find what you're looking for in this life!
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Well, I AM different, but I'm also wanted. (Just never wanted by the right people. Ha!) But seriously, I'm actually quite wanted. I just don't get anything out of being around other people. I just want to get something out of it.
I also don't think people see me in a bad way. Maybe they did at one time, but not anymore. Perhaps the word "outcast" isn't the best term although that's what it feels like. It's like no matter how well I get along with people, no matter how much they like me, how much we have in common…I still can't connect to them.
Another example is at least until recently, I've wanted a relationship only to have no interest on the other end. Now that there is, I'm not developing feelings for these people who seem to have "feelings" for me the second they start talking to me online. Even if it's just physical attraction, I don't have physical attraction for them (especially not that quickly). I just don't understand why it's always like that. And if I like someone, even if they pretend to have interest in me, it's either only temporary or just a lie to get something from me. I seriously don't understand how mutual attraction is possible. It seems just by just psychological reasons alone that it would be impossible to like someone who likes you and vice versa. And I bet no one else can relate to that!