(((((((((((Candy))))))))))))
You being one of the people here I really truly like and admire, I'm sad to see you hurting like this.
Have you tried going out and meeting people in town? I know, you've probably heard it before, but it's worth a shot.
The reason or point of living is to not let the %#@&#! of life get the better of us. You're a strong person, you really are. You may not see it, but I do.
Don't give up (it sounds corny) because when life keeps throwing us into a pit of junk, then we know we can eventually look forward to having it a bit better. Hang onto the hope it can get better.
I care about you. I really truly do.