I am feeling very alone and invisible tonight. I chose to stay home instead of going to see family. Im not in the mood to socialize and be with family. My best friend and I are slowly separating because she has a new boyfriend in her life and she is also getting a puppy. So she puts me in fourth priority after her family. She doesn't talk to me much or isn't of much comfort to me anymore. My old T is gone from my life and I miss her so much. I wont see my new T for another 6 days so its a wonder if I can stand that long. Im also done seeing my pdoc, because im no longer on medication. All I do is work or stay home, because I have no one to do anything with or do what I want to do. It will also be one year this month since I was in the hospital and will be two years since my grandmother suddenly passed away. This month is going to be very hard and its only the 3rd day.