Yeah, I'm trying to avoid "love" type relationships, but I'm codependent and I know it. One of my long term goals in therapy is to stop relationship hopping. My therapist knows that it's almost an addiction for me and that it's a negative coping skill, so it's not really a short term goal, but more of a long term goal. I've been doing my best to not get involved, especially online, but... ugh. I can't stand being alone.

The weirdest part about it is that even though I can't stand being alone I'm just never happy in a normal relationship. It absolutely has to have turbulence. Yeah, I'm crazy.

Thank you for the support though. It makes me feel not so messed up.