I'm sorry to post this. I know I have been too needy and I post too much. I have nowhere else to turn. I had a horrible day. Everything went wrong. The head doctor at work was upset with me. I did the best job I could but it wasn't good enough. I'm never good enough. I'm a total failure. At the end of the workday I just wanted to leave this world. I have lost all desire to live. My daughter came to visit this evening and that did distract me and help my mood some. It also made me realize I have to go on living for my children. Here it is fourth of July weekend. I should be celebrating but I am exhausted and out of hope. In the past year the docs tried Prozac, Effexor, citalopram, and now Buproprion for my depression. None of it works. I am so miserable I can't stand it anymore. I hate myself and I hate my life.