I would like to build myself up to the point where I will be able to work. The problem I am having is, I fear people, crowds, criticism, and in general just leaving the house on my own..

I was actively looking in the past, and got interviews, but would never get the job because some habits I have when anxious (Leg shaking, cannot make eye contact, nail biting ect.)

The jobs I have had in the past (after High school I managed to get work twice) never held for longer than a month, and always ended in a pretty bad (and embarrassing) anxiety attack.. after which I would be to ashamed to return.

I am tired of having my boyfriend be the only one working! I don't like feeling useless.

I can't avoid this forever, but trying to force myself out there seems to just make me more and more miserable!

Anyone have suggestions?