Yes, as freewill said, you are never alone here. We understand where you are coming from and are always here to offer assistance and support. A negative self-image constitutes both SI and eating disorders and thus one could easily transition to/be replaced by the other. Even if you have only the vaguest suspicion that something might be "wrong", i suggest you talk to a professional to prevent worsening conditions if nothing else.

(((ll_h)))