((((((((((((((((((((((madmusician)))))))))))))))))))))))) I hope you find someone you can talk to . Do you have a t? Sometimes that is a good place to learn trust. It is hard if there is a history of bad relationships. I am sorry you are hurting so much. Please feel free to PM me if you want.

I know SI is such an alluring coping mechanism and when things get so overwhelming the only one that seems available. Please look in the self injury forum and at the top are some suggestions instead of hurting yourself. I know how hard it is. Please take care and try and stay safe. I am here and I care.