hi fellas. another day started happy but it's gonna take days for my downloads to finish and i'm all alone again - well, internet-wise; i have no more friends in my hometown. perhaps they think i've alienated them, i myself feel just right posting my hand flippin' a bird on my facebook profile photo and writing there that the reason i write 99% of the time in english is because i don't have friends in my town and country. which is true. yet i know i'm still trying to reach out for them that way, as i can recognize it. i haven't even blocked em yet - just turned off the cht for all of em and unfollowed em all.my life story viewed ina positive way is the bad didn't really is known around here, save for perhaps the few who've seen my intro post, where i tell about how i lost my oice which was my last instrument that nealy got my arm, amputated.nt since my right hand can't function properly to play my alto or my bass due to chronic pain and it being handicapped - bad junk shot.

i was waiting for this dropoff. i'm tired yet agitated and as my icon says, TENSE. a bit of self control - i just HAD to take my last emergency 18mg concerta and take two 10 mg valiums, hopoe i get better. i'm yawning all the time, mthroat is dry and today's definitely gonna be a five pack affair to me at least.I wanna sleep yet i don't want to at the sme time. too tense. need to listen toi a record and stop typing. more on that later,