..I guess a bit of background might help

...I am a man...a boy.. a child....but a man really....

and who cares?...

tonite I went to a brothel and met a woman...a girl...a lady.

the experience was some kind of perfect.

we sat and chatted and ...

she opened up to me...

the chatting and listening was such comfort...

I opened up to her...

these things are complex and are between me and her

there was nothing physical...
beyond playing with her hair..

she was natural around me...

it cost me 650$ to be near someone emotionally and to not feel bad

I am pleased with how life arranged this