I use to quit every winter easy but now not so much. Since I didn't quit last winter, and since I'm trying to make my life a lot healthier through changing how I eat, and doing a lot more exercise (noticing that as soon as I started this I started smoking a lot more), I decided to quit for good.... the hard part is I'm not sure I want to.

I messed up once already today, and I'm super craving another today. I didn't think I was this addicted!

I was so anxious and jittery (it looked like I had WAY too much caffeine) when I came out of DBT, but as soon as I had the first drag that just stopped. Now my stomach is hurting and it feels like my skin is crawling and I'm nauseous from anxiety.

Since my quit date I've had 1 every day because of just giving in (not bad though!), with the exemption of yesterday where I didn't have any (YAY).

I just feel so ******... emotionally and physically.