Thank you, SnakeCharmer, for your post. Oh yes, I have good medical coverage. (Bless the national healthcare reform!) I'm under the care of a psychiatrist. I'm very pleased with my health plan with one exception - the only "talk" therapy my plan (Kaiser) offers is a once-a-month appointment with a therapist who goes over tools (such as meditation, mindfulness, etc.). There is no provision for "real" talk therapy. So if I seek the kind of therapy I'd like (once a week, an hour per session) I have to pay entirely out-of-pocket.

I was attending support groups (free, through NAMI and through MeetUp.com) over the winter and spring. The groups were terrifically helpful. The groups I was attending kind of ran their course for me, but I'm going to look around online today and see if there are any new groups that might be worth checking out.

Yeah, I do believe that anyone in my situation would be likely to feel awfully discouraged. My husband was never a strong, dependable man...things initially appeared to be different with John, but lo and behold, the pattern is repeating itself. Something morbidly amusing in all of this: David and John share the same birth date. Different years, of course, but the same date.

What are the chances........