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Old Jul 04, 2014, 05:00 PM
pumpkin445 pumpkin445 is offline
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Originally Posted by splitter View Post
Two years after a break-up, I still feel the consequences.
Sure, I have troubles of my own, that got me in a relationship like that in the first place. But I can't relax. I see threats everywhere. Not only am I generally ****ed-up about the opposite sex, I seem to attract only that type of men. Even when I meet somebody i might think is normal, turns out not to be. And it's not just me projecting things, I am very aware when I do that (and luckily, I have pretty good friends who tell me when I'm being paranoid ), somehow the bastard's plots and doings get to me via third persons.

It's like I have this obsessive need (or want) for people knowing what he really is. And yeah, I can't just go around and tell people. They wouldn't believe me anyway, probably. On rare occasions, I meet people who turn out to be his acquaintances, and usually I just stop communicating. But it bugs me. And very recently, I told someone the truth. A very shortened one, but still, the truth. Didn't go that very well.

It's very painful for me to watch people liking him. I know, I shouldn't care. And I don't care about him, not anymore, for a long time now. But a part of me wants him to be alone and miserable.

Stuff he did to me...it's unforgivable. Will I ever be able to really move on? Not in a sense of letting go the relationship, but to finally get over the trauma itself. I can't trust anyone. I don't trust anyone. I have one really close male friend who's been with me through all the crap and I think he's the only male person I ever really trusted.
Hi,

I completely understand what you are going through, I just got out of a similar situation and it is absolutely shocking and scary to feel like you are so alone when he has the intellect to rally all to his side before he strikes. It is the most evil thing since it isn't a crime he can be arrested for.

This is a good place for us all to chat and commiserate and yes even your own friends and family will not fully understand because you are the one that dealt with him in the most intimate setting. I am so sorry I feel your pain, I am in the same pain right now, I wish all his powers to do any of this will be taken away from him forever!!
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Whyattractedtopsych