Okay, so I feel like this post as been a long time coming.
I keep meaning to write about this but when I'm online here it always seems to slip my mind.
Anyway . . .
So I've been noticing in recent years thsat it's hard for my to really maintain long term relationships- friendships and otherwise.
I used to think it was because of long distances, people and family members moving away, etc.
But I've come to realize it's more than that.
It's way easier for me to meet people and chat them up and than after a while, once I know everything there is to know about them and they know me I feel like theres nowhere to go from there. Almost like I get bored, but not really.
I've been described as boring at times- I rarely get bored- I can do things for hours on end, full concentration- especially if it's something I like- I've often been praised on my patience and listening skills.
But perhaps from my past, being a recluse, it's hard to get back into things.
Once one gets cut off, or closes themselves off from society it's hard to fit back in?
These are just my thoughts.
I've talked to therapists in the past how I thought I have avoidant personality disorder (which I've self diagnosed myself with having) coupled with schizoid personality disorder- they didn't think so. Before you google that, it's basically when it's easier for a person to have many short term relationships rather than long term. I hope this isn't true about me.