My town has gone Tour de France crazy. Tomorrow the first stage will end here and on Sunday the peloton will pass through again, just 30 yards from my house. I want very much to go and watch the finish and my brother is coming up to visit too. I am quite nervous about whether I can cope with the crowds and how well my mood will hold up. Today I went on a long walk with my dog, we had a good look round the displays and fan park where the big screen will be. That helped as nothing terrible happened and I didn't feel triggered by all the happy people around me (that has happened to me once before). It seems quite surreal for such a big global event to be in my home town.