so now i'm hyper, took another 18mg concerta and two valiums again. i need to come to to terms with what i had just done - blocked all my brazilian friends except for a couple that i give the benefit of the doubt. the reason? well, i typed earlier in facebook that the only reason i don't type there in portuguese 99% of the time is because i don't have friends in my homeland. EXACTLY one of the 'cream of the crop' answered ''go **** yourself then, lol''. that was it. it confirmed my doubts. so i did major purging there and now am listening to different editions of an ac/dc album i like a lot - powerage. it feels sad and happy at the same time. i slept all day long after the last post here, and i'm coming to terms that given the story of my life, i'venever had really true friends. it's hard, but i'll keep on trying. however, today unfortuinately i'll have to abuse. just took another concerta 18mg and 5 valiums. it's still too much for me. i don't know really what to think. happy/euphoric/glad/sad/TRYING to cope. and coping, but this time i needed to go over the edge. oh well. lemme take the rest of my meds.