I don't have any great advice but please know that you're posting among friends and I for one don't think you're being needy or posting too much!! Bring it on! That's what we're here for. Movies help me escape from my head sometimes too. I'm glad you found at least a little something that reminded you of your happier self.

Good luck with the medication(s). I just started a new one and it's sort of helping, or at least it's helping a little more than the last one I was on...I think..? It takes a while for the meds to take full effect and it's hard to know if it's ever really going to work, which doesn't sit well with someone who is feeling hopeless. Hugs to you, and I hope you have an emotionally peaceful night tonight.