Hi Jinny

I'm sorry you're having these dreams. I have lots of nightmares too, so I know what it's like. I think you're right that it might be coming now because you've been posting a lot about it, but it is good that you're working with your past. Just be careful not to move too fast I think.
Try to do something to make the nightmare go away. I know it is hard but what works best for me is to force myself to do something. Just to keep you busy. Like cleaning or going for a walk or something.
I understand why going to your moms and meeting her new boyfriend ca be tough. Maybe you don't have to stay very long. Think hard if there is anything that might make the visit easier. I hope for you that it goes well.

Hugs

Izzy