I am so sorry you are going through this. I go through it all the time. My main state of being is in mixed bipolar episodes.... It's tough, so tough. And know one "gets it." What it's like to be YOU in those moments.

I don't know what to tell you, mine last from months of just mixed episode after mixed episode. Good luck. Just listen to good meaningful music, and watch meaningful movies, exercise, and keep in touch with friends. It'll help....