I know exactly what you mean man... I got the guilt-trip a lot too. I think it's hard growing up different and having the guilt-trip being added to it. You end up feeling bad about yourself as a whole. You get the guilt-trip then you get rejected by peers at school for being different... a soul-crushing 1-2 combo punch. If you're different you need even more acceptance/encouragement at home if you're going to succeed... personally my family had extenuating circumstances that pushed my needs to the back burner so I didn't get what I needed from family and certainly wasn't accepted by peers... game over for self-esteem.