Hi everyone I live in Maine. I was dx with Bipolar II about 3 years ago after many years of being misdiagnosed. I have been very stable for 2 years on Abilify and Lexapro. Small ups and downs but nothing serious. I did gain about 50 lbs after starting Abilify after having my weight stable for about 10 years. Then last year I was dx with Thyroid cancer, so now I have no Thyroid so another 15 lbs have been packed on.

I have been so stable, that my Pdoc and I discussed trying to cut back on the Abilify, I was on 20 mg, a good size dose. We were hoping it would help with the weight gain. This was about 6 weeks ago that we started a dose taper. Then my Neurologist, who handles my migraines, added Amitriptyline about a month ago after I had a 9 day migraine. My Pdoc thought it was ok because it was only 25 mg, but I kept having migraines and so the Amitriptyline was doubled to 50. Can anyone guess what comes next?

I went into a tailspin. I'm all over the place. I stopped sleeping even though the Amitriptyline is sedating. And I started spending money. And I didn't tell anyone because I kept thinking I could cover it up. My husband is SO mad at me. I started crashing 3 days ago. Crashing hard. I haven't been this depressed in 4 years. I feel like I can't go for help because I am a licensed foster mom to my grandson and I am afraid DHHS would find out I am not stable. My husband just rolls his eyes and looks down his nose at me. I am talking to friends that understand though. And I am just trying to get through one hour at a time.