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I have never been in one that long as mine is very cyclical. I can say that I reached an age where I was just tired of fighting it or trying to hide it. It takes a monumental effort to hide and fight. In some ways I have surrendered to it and accepted it. Not in the sense that I give in to suicidal thoughts or that I have given up on treatment. When I am very severely depressed i let myself be that way and I don't try to hide it anymore. Paradoxically that seems to help. I still go to therapy and take meds and do what i can to treat it so I don't mean giving up.
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The "paradox" is only a conflict between reality and your feeling of what reality "ought to be." -- Richard Feynman
Major Depressive Disorder
Anxiety Disorder with some paranoid delusions thrown in for fun.
Recovering Alcoholic and Addict
Possibly on low end of bi polar spectrum...trying to decide.
Male, 50
Fetzima 80mg
Lamictal 100mg
Remeron 30mg for sleep
Klonopin .5mg twice a day, cutting this back
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