I'm still gettin used to psychosis being a part of my life. My first brush with it was last august, where I felt like another being was implanting thoughts that weren't my own in my head. I don't remember whether that was constant or not. The last unmedicated episode I had in April was pretty constant. Started with thinking my husband was controlling me with my medication. That would come up every time I had to take the pills. I would just get mad at him. When it devolved into complete paranoia it was come and go. I would be ok and then someone would look at me funny or something and then I would be a mess. It went on until I had a total meltdown and thought someone was trying to kill me but I couldn't figure out who.
Now with the help of medication I am mostly ok, but if I get very stressed out (ex panic attack) I will get a breakthrough paranoia attack or hallucination. So I understand what you mean that it's not necessarily constant.
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That’s life. If nothing else, that is life. It’s real. Sometimes it
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