Hello, Blindsided, and welcome! I am glad you finally found your site. I usually try to post links when people say "Hello" in the New Intro forum.
Well, we can't say exactly what you have until you get the proper tests done. Do you mean you don't have mania because you don't have a feeling of being high and happy?
Feel free to read here, of course, to see what folks say. My son has ADD, so I come here some.
If you have other problems in getting around, then feel free to click on my name on green. That will send you to my profile page, where you can leave a message.
I hope the docs can get you figured out soon--and on the right meds.