Honestly I have found that getting older makes me want more independence. I enjoy being alone. I am just DONE with being someone's servant, cook, laundress, maid. That's all I've ever "gotten" from a husband/SO. Just work for them, entertain them and go to a "real" job to support them.

Don't be so quick to say you can't. You seem like a strong person who knows enough to keep herself afloat. I have EVERY faith in you! Do what ya gotta do!