I've just read this whole journey of yours from the beginning in the past hour.

I know others will back me up when I say that you really, truly are making significant progress. You have a totally different (better) "voice" in your posts now as compared to when you began. Even if you don't see/feel it yet you are sounding more positive and controlled

I thinl you are wonderfully brave for doing this journal!

Breathe and meditate. Rinse lather repeat (or is that too much of an American joke)

You are in my thoughts.