Your views aren't working for you exactly well, are they? Depression tends to linger. And if you gonna obsess how you are not "god-like" cause hedonism doesn't satisfy you... you are only feeding the depression.

Why insist on calling yourself a sociopath (looking for excuse? I don't except the "I cain't help it, I am ill", sorry)?

You can help a lot of things. If your ways aren't working, maybe it's time to reconsider rather than hoping shallow hedonism will satisfy you again. I believe one needs more purpose then seeking pleasure. Pleasure comes also from feeling good about yourself, having purpose... buddhism says suffering is part of life... and that makes a lot of sense... nobody has ever gotten through life with pleasure only. If you obsess about not feeling pleasure all the time... you will not be able to enjoy the good things when they come. Pleasure comes from lack of suffering. But one has to feel sadness to be able recognize happiness.