Well, that didn't work out very well. I weaned off Effexor in early 2012, since it didn't seem to be working any more, and I blamed it for apathy that might have been responsible for some unfortunate things that happened just prior to that time.

Going off Effexor was a nightmare, even with weaning and being prescribed Wellbutrin for four months afterwards, the Wellbutrin made me vomit a lot. Since then I have refused to take any more meds for my depression. And it seems that my depression, now dealt up with a healthy dose of anxiety, has slowly worsened. Now it has become intolerable and crippling. My doctor has been trying to get me back on some kind of medication but I have resisted. Reading all the negative things out there on SSRI's, SNRI's, etc. hasn't helped.

So tomorrow I have an appt with my doc and am going to ask to go on citalopram, which seems to me to be one of the least side-effect ridden of the lot. I have never tried an SSRI (Effexor is an SNRI, Wellbutrin is neither), so maybe it will help. It better because I can't go on like this, I don't think my heart and physical health can take it for much longer, my stomach is constantly in knots. But I am still VERY apprehensive about it, in spite of citalopram seeming to be fairly light, I still see a lot of bad press about it, but I have to do something. I did try a Mindfulness course, and that seemed to help a little, but not that much and not for very long. I will continue with the meditations though.

I guess I'm not really asking for advice since I don't really see any alternative at this point, to me going back on meds is now a necessity in my mind, but I would still like to hear your opinions. I hope I'm doing the right thing, if not I suppose I can go off them (slowly, of course) after giving it a chance.

Well, here's hoping for the best!