I love the way I experience love. When everything's good it's PERFECT. None borderlines wouldn't get that. However, as both me and my girlfriend have BPD our fights are horrible. Suicide threats, accusing each other of **** (claiming the other person loves hurting us, don't care, are as abusive as our exes, she says it's my fault she relapsed into her heroin addiction etc) and yeah... we just hurt each other so much. It hurts like hell. And the day after a fight like this, everything's back to normal and we can just feel genuinly happy, cuddling in each other's arms again. How do you handle these kind of emotional rollercoasters? Have any of you been in a relationship with another borderline before?
Also, is there anyone else on here who finds it EXTREMELY hard to express positive feelings? I'm not used to it... there's so much I want to tell A and not a single minute goes by without me thinking about how ****ing much I love her. I know she wants to hear it, but I just become speechless everytime I try to tell her. The feelings are too strong.