I don't really think religion is about being good so you get pleasure as reward. It's about being good... because it right thing to do.
You sounds very depressed and trying to find something to get you going... but I really think you are doing it wrong. Btw... altruism can be rewarding right now. Being loved and admired feels great. Having somebody to talk to can help more than seeking some mindless pleasure to escape your thoughts.
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