I completely understand. I've actually decided to live by myself, and it's working out for the better. Don't get me wrong, I still have sexual binges where I go out almost every night for a week or two and find women to sleep with, but with DBT and mindfulness I keep that under control most of the time. I slip up from time to time though.

I have found that I don't get along with people and have found a certain... peacefulness in being alone. It has taken quite a long time to get here, but here I am.