Thanks Chromegirl! Yes, it makes sense that those with bad experiences would post the most, can't blame them for that. I do take it all with a grain of salt, in a way I suppose it's a good thing that I have no real choice now, I am hopeful that with the meds I will end up better off than the existence that I would have had just surviving without them. I count myself lucky that through all of this, and with all that one loses with this type of illness, I still manage to retain my hope for a better future.

I have seen a Psychiatrist in the past, but I got the distinct impression that she thought I was just trying to get off work with all of this and she didn't really want to see me again. Well, now I'm retired and the problems are still there, and are worse. Guess it was real after all. I saw a therapist as well for a while but that wasn't working well either and it got too expensive, so...

I might try a psychiatrist again, though, I'll bring it up tomorrow with my GP. I've had my GP for a long time and she knows where I've been over the years and really wants to help me.

Anyhow, thanks, I do think I'm on the right track now. I keep thinking of Dr. Phil (who I can't stand but my ex used to watch all the time) saying, "So how's THAT working for you?". ;-)

btw, I read your wordpress stuff, very interesting and touching. I've had a run of bad news over the past few years so I can really relate. I know you'll get there, but I do hope sooner rather than later! Good luck!

I think it's time to stop reading all the anti-anti-depressant stuff, as I often say, sometimes you just have to close your eyes tight and put the pedal to the metal! Although I am usually referring to traffic jams. ;-)