I had 2 negative experiences before my current experience, which I thought started out negative but has turned out to be positive.

Gee does that even make sense?

The first lady was via an employee assistance programme, after a few sessions: I'm sorry but I am not qualified to help you...

Uhmmm ok yeah thanks for nothing b1tch.

Second? I ran away faster than the Roadrunner from Wile E coyote, because she was making me highly uncomfortable. Scratching at emotional scabs and scars that I had worked so hard to heal over the years. Making me question things that caused a lot of turmoil when they weren't even issues before she posed the questions!

Yeah so that, didn't work out for me either.

Had a talk with my pdoc (like almost 3 years later) and we decided that I need a different model of therapy. Not the dig in your childhood type, but more the,here's how to deal with your present type...

So the T I have now, he doesn't make me feel worse, he's actually helping. He respects the fact that we are not going on a digging expedition, however I will reference past trauma should they be relevant to the present...

Idk, I don't have an issue with being open where he's concerned. I don't even feel the need to make an effort to trust him, because like who's he gonna tell? Lol. I'm sorry, its just funny in my scenario, I'm not trying to make light of anyone else's experience. I view my T as a wellness tool and he can't really work effectively if I don't provide the means to hit the switch. Therefore, I make it my business to share.

And so far, so good. I've only been seeing him since March, but I've yet to even want to bolt.

So yay me, or yay him. I'm not too sure...

The point of my rambling? Maybe the model of therapy was not conducive to your needs, and therefore it was more traumatizing than helpful.