I feel like a failure. I tried to make the right choices this long ***** weekend but overall I would venture to say that I thought about my T 75% of the weekend. Now the next station is approaching. I've been on this ride before.

The next station is full of self-destructive things. This time I have several road blocks in my way. The first is that I am married so I don't live a alone anymore. When I was alone... Oh boy! The next is that I have a job, though I have gone IP for a week while here. That was several years ago. The third reason is I don't have the money to eff around.

Still it's calling me.