It's so much worse at night, though I have done my share of crying all day today... I hate grief and loss... I've never been good at dealing with it.
I don't know how to make the time go faster. I don't know why I am so bent on a new T being able to help me through this. I should be able to help myself through this... I should be able to function on my own... I'm just too needy. I rely too much on others because I'm so tired of relying on myself. I don't want to keep having to do it.