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Dear This Way Out,
I'm so very sorry for your sense of loss and grief and the pain ya'll are feeling. It is profound and I honestly hate to hear all the 'should's' in your last post. There really is no proper or right way to grieve. Grief is its own process and takes as long as it takes. There is no timeline and absolutely NO SHAME in needing, asking for, and taking extra support. This is a huge loss and your footing has shifted. Of course it is going to be very scary, and I hope you know that you are not alone in any way. We are all here with you, and hopefully your new T and others IRL.
Please be VERY kind and patient with yourself. Cry when you need to, shake when you need to, throw ice at the wall when you need to. Whatever it takes, then that is the very best thing to do. You are very strong but don't realize it. And no matter how much support you need, you are still very much facing this head on and by yourself. You will get through this and it will get a little better with some time and as you begin to heal.
No more 'should's'...okay? How about a little reward once in a while for having such a wonderful heart and the courage and patience to let yourself heal properly. I bet your T would be very proud of you for reaching out for the support you need and acknowledging your own feelings so very well.
Gentle hugs,
Wysteria Blue
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Your vision will become clear only when you can look into your heart.
Who looks outside, Dreams...
Who looks inside, Awakens...
- Carl Jung
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