I don't know - you're right. I've heard "fake it til you make it" and try to do stuff anyway, but I kind of feel I could just take it or leave it right now. My big interests are reading and studying languages, and at one time it felt almost vital to me to have alone time to read, etc. each day. Now that is gone. Just doesn't seem to matter. I would love to feel the excitement over things in my life that I used to, but it's just not there.