Hi, Deanna, glad you found PC. It is a place you can vent and, also, receive feedback. The forums are really good at listening to other's issues and giving feedback. Have you seen a doctor or therapist. It might help to have the support of health professionals. Depression is hard to deal with without professional help. I live with it everyday and understand how difficult it can be. You might want to post in the relationship forum too for support of dealing with your relationship with Chris and your current bf. Hope you find the help you need here.