He knows. I guess there's not much he can do to help me. Other than hiring a 24 hr life coach to drag and keep me out of bed, I have to do it myself, which is understandable. I've tried recruiting my parents but they can't babysit me all day either.

My therapist uses the analogy of car motors to explain my situation: Some people have disciplined there brains where it's nothing for them to do things they don't feel like doing without a fuss, just insert the key into the ignition and go. I, on the other hand, have one of the motors that you have to get out of the car and hand crank to get it going. It's like pulling teeth with me when I don't feel like doing anything.

It's silly, but I'm still resentful of the fact that being an adult means doing things you don't feel like doing 90% of the time. I have no disciple. I don't know for I made it this far.

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