Hi, Shadowdove. I certainly hope you are getting the help you need. Hang in there. I've been through the hospital ordeal a couple of times and know it is not easy. Even though, I did like not having to cook. I hope you are better soon and able to go home in a better place mentally.

I make my pledge today to remove suicide as option. This pledge does not come lightly or easily for me. I've always used planning it as a way of putting myself to sleep at night. I've had to change my thought patterns to achieve this pledge. I'm trying aromatherapy to help ease my anxiety at bedtime and make choose better thoughts. My psychiatrist will be glad to hear this as he is worried about me. He knows plans I've already taken care of just in case like my funeral has been planned and paid for along with my tombstone.

So when I say not today, it is one less burden I carry with me. Am depressed and am at risk, so I'm happy to be accountable to all of you. I don't go back on my promises, so I'm okay until tomorrow.

Sorry. Didn't mean for this to be a running off at the mouth but wanted to let everybody know how their support is helping me through the day, one day at a time.