Today I felt the urge to hurt myself.
I have had quite a good day, but in a meeting at work, somebody said I was outstanding at something, but it is widely known that others at my level are resistant to this work, just routine stuff. Anyway there was a slight joke and, as is usual for me I felt like running away, but also happy with the cudos.
I was left with a horrible feeling of being an idiot, and that everyone thinks I am a joke at best.
I hate feeling like this and that some people think I am the class swat or something.
I guess this triggered school issues, but the intensity of feeling has caught me out, and I suddenly felt a need to bring myself back to normality by punishing myself.
Praise confuses the hell out of me!
I always feel out of touch with peers, but have never worked out how to be 'one of them'.
I ofren feel out of touch with people on PC aswell.
Help