I suffer with severe anxiety and depression, and alot of other un-adressed problems because of anxiety but I never feel better than when I'm with my friends who don't know and are just my normallity I suppose and I have no problem talking to girls and sex which at the start was a losing battle everytime but then it hits me ten fold when I'm me again, I never thought I would think it but suicide is my fantacy but I don't want to kill myself, so I have end of earth dreams every night and find myself staring out the window convinced in hope an
asteroid is coming and I keep laughing even though I'm scared and I am so confused and questioning the point in life, picking up something I dropped or if where not even real and I don't know how to deal with it when it's so all of a sudden and intense' and doctors are useless drug dealers so if anyone relates and has controlled it and your life then anything will be great

this forum is amazing btw, I don't talk a word about myself to mates even non anxiety related stuff and I have'nt said some of this to myself yet so thanks, even if noone reads it, I still did,
If anyone wants to talk or share then feel free and write away